It is getting harder and harder

The first week I thought was a success. I ate right, i worked out everyday and by the end of the day I felt great! It was until I hit that "time of the month". Although I was well aware that my cravings were because of my hormones but I still ate. Unbelievable. I really thought I could control it but I guess not.

Where does this leave me now? Well I am back to square one. I mean, I'm still doing the videos as told but my diet has to balance that to lose weight; and the weight that I lose last week came back just a few days after.

I need to realize why I am doing this and I need to have faith that I can do it. On a positive note, I'm just glad that my time of the month started at the beginning of my program so that way I have 5 and a half weeks to go back and restore my damage.

It is definitely a challenge but I know I can do it!!!

So I decided to delete my youtube video

I was very skeptical about posting it up at first. Then I just sucked it up and did it anyways, but now I feel skeptical again -.- Poor me. It is too hard for me to share myself openly to cyber world like that.

On the other hand, I decided to keep the blog. It is a great motivator and who cares if nobody reads it? I am doing this for me and for my health. I never have time to write down things so I'll just wait until night time to reflect on my day.

So far I ate 2 cups of outback steakhouse salad. I know they're not the most healthiest but at least I had greens. Then I ate toast with a drizzle of honey. I never tried it before until now. It was either honey or nutella. Nutella claims to be good but after reading the bad i thought no way am I scarfing down 200 calories for only 2 tbsp of that. So I opt for honey instead, which we all know it is filled with a lot of nutritional goodness. Not to mention it is delicious! Perhaps next time I will make half a toast instead of the full slice.

Food is most definitely the hardest part about dieting or "life style" changing. Personally, I absolutely LOVE healthy foods. However, I eat just as much as healthy foods to junk foods so really, kind of defeats the idea of eating healthy.

I have so much events coming up (grad parties, birthday parties, and other events) that I don't know how I will be able to control myself >__<>

If you don't already know, I LOVE food. (the second time i wrote "love" in caps) Cause it's true. I am a foodie. Call it how ever you wish, I was grown up to appreciate a good stew, or adobo in my case. Whenever my friends go out, we always go out to eat. Not to mention all my friends are thinner than me. Blehh.

Anywho, I know I can do it. I CAN do it!

Until next time,

Geeeh

Day 1

Who knew that 25 minutes of work out ill equal to sore muscles heavy breathing I thought my head would explode? Well it did and doing the Start it Up! video certainly did start up the beginning of my six weeks.

Let me first say that I really enjoyed it! It's right up my alley with the level and the entire vibe of the video. Debbie made me feel super motivated through out the routine. She had that "motherly" feel which I like. My mom on the other hand encourages food. She is a cook after all xD

Speaking of, today I had an orange, a 6-inch veggie delight at Subway. 2 vitamin gummy bears (yum!), and pita wrap from Aloha Salads (also delicious).

I should start cooking my own foods. But I just have to find good recipes with affordable ingredients. I only work part time yannow :). Anywho, this is all that I have for today. Hope you all are having a great day!

Until next time,

Geeeh

I just had my last Twinkie...

...And it tasted so good! Unfortunately that is one of the many junk foods I will stop eating as of today. :(

But Hey! We've all gone through it. Those feelings of insecurity and self-consciousness. Of course I am one and hopefully doing this blog and my youtube videos will help me get through it.

But first, let me give you a brief history about myself (for the zero who are reading). I honestly don't think anyone will read this or even come across it. I am plain, I am chubby, and I am basically a nobody--in the cyber world that is. I am nearly 18 years old, graduation is a week away and once that is done I will be able to take full control of my life. I have 6 weeks before I start school again and I want to use to it's advantage.

Its obvious that I am not an expert in fitness and nutrition, but I just want to share what I know and hopefully you can give me some insight on how you've overcome weight issues. We can learn together. Also, the reason why I am doing this because this me trying another attempt in losing weight. I've done it all. All except lipo and diet pills...uh yea.

So this time I will be trying this work out routine called Slim in 6. I have a video of me talking about it here:

Ugh, I can barely watch it. My face practically takes half the screen. Like I said in the video I will be sharing my progress. Six weeks, that's it! But I am not going to lie, I am a little scared and doubtful but at the same time I am excited and stoked! Well anyways, my first official day is tomorrow and we'll see how it goes. If you guys have any questions or advice for me and other readers please share! I would love to read it :D We can do it!

Until next time,

Geeeh

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